What's Happening Here....

I woke up this morning to a very early phone call.

The calls that you panic for a second.. because it's really too early to be calling someone.

Unless it's an emergency.

It was my Aunt Jeanine.

Crap!  I jumped out of bed.

She was in the airport.. about to board a plane for Germany.. and I promised I would call her back yesterday so we could chat before she left.

Ya.. it didn't happen.

To be fair.. neither did dinner yesterday.

 Some days are just too busy.

Life has been crazy-good busy.

The nice part of it is.. things are looking up.

And I know I will be forgiven for my "promise" that didn't happen.. because she loves me.

I need to do better at making and keeping promises.

*****

I feel like my load is a little less heavy each day.

We had such a good and full weekend. 

Thursday Night Chad and I were attending a Scouting awards banquet and were suprised to see our dear friends Brian and Suzie attending.  It was such a treat to see them and visit for a minute.  I am grateful to know they will be in our district now.

The District had Olive Garden cater the dinner.. and there was too much extra food.. so we were able to bring a lot home.  It was a tender mercy.. since we have such a strict food budget right now.

We had dinner with some neighbors  Peter and Adrianne Friday night, Cleaned the church Saturday Afternoon and then we attended a fun Napoleon Dynamite Valentines Party Saturday night.

Sunday morning we drove down to Lehi to my Aunt Diane and Uncle Mike's Mission Farewell.  They leave to Berlin Germany next week.  It was a lovely meeting.. and the spirit was strong.

I would love to climb into their suit case and go visit all of my friends in Germany!

Maybe one day soon!

Yesterday ( Monday ) I had my first Counseling/Therapy appointment.

People have asked how it went.. and I'm still not sure.

I pretty much just emotionally threw up and weeped for an hour.

-- You know.. started from the beginning of my life... and ended with...

 " I'm kinda a mess.. aren't I?

" To which he smiled.. but didn't comment."  So.. maybe it's a bad thing?  ha ha

I do feel good about it.

I am grateful for all of the people that have been praying for me.

I am grateful I took the steps to get help...  ~ And I look forward to next week.

Some people may wonder why I decide to put so much of my private life on my blog in such an open and honest way.

It's simple. 

I like to help people.

I like real-ness and honesty.

And with all of the things I have been through and experienced in my life.. if there is someway I can help another to avoid those trials.. or help them get through them... or help others to feel like they are not alone in their trials.... then I am going to keep being so open.

There are a few aspects of my life that I cannot blog about for privacy reasons -- and I hate it.

So.. then I decide I am going to go private... and then when I finally decide to make my blog private... I get e-mails from random people... some whom have found my blog searching about grieving or cancer or I get emails about various ancestors that I have in common with someone else in the world... and then they write to me.. and I realize what good my blog can still do -- being open.. and then I am guilted once again to leave it open.  ~ After all.. nothing bad has happened with me being public.. so here I continue to be.

 I continue to publicly Journal.

 For me.. for my children, future posterity -- and even random people that need to not feel alone -- and are searching for something specific on the internet.

I am long winded and sometimes shockingly honest.... but I don't blog for numbers, givaways or $.

I have never photo shopped or edited pictures.  I just don't have the time.

And I am all about being real.

Because I like and want real friends.

You know... the ones that will tell you when those jeans don't look good on you... and are not afraid to hurt your feelings when it's needed.  Those friends that will stick by you through everything.

 Even when it's crappy.

The End.

*****

This week is continued busyness.

Tonight I am teaching my cub scouts how to whittle and carve with a knife.
Don't worry... I have Chad's help.. and we are using plastic knives on a bar of soap.
This should be interesting.

The Valentine Man comes on Thursday.

Friday is my parents wedding Anniversary... and a few of my siblings and I are taking Mom to Dinner.  I feel for her.  This is a hard week.  I hope my Dad will be close by her.

Saturday I am hosting a Baby Shower for my cousin Amanda.  I look forward to it!

Happy Valentines Week!!

Today I am Grateful for:

There is always Hope and Faith.

To Love and be Loved.

Those that love -- instead of Judge

Prayer

For a Loving Heavenly Father that knows each one of us in the world... and loves us no matter what-- unconditionally.