I feel like I went to sleep and woke up a changed woman.
I cannot believe how much I have learned about myself and my life.. in the last 24 hours.
Seriously...I feel like a new Woman today.
Aunt Jeannine came to visit me yesterday morning.. and we talked non-stop for 3 1/2 hours.
She shared so much knowledge and wisdom with me.. I feel happy.
Full of gratitude.
My heart feels Joyful.
I can't remember how long it's been since I have felt Joy.
While she was here.. I could feel my Dad, Grandmothers and Great Grandma Mary close by.
I know they are with me.. and have been concerned about me.
I felt a lot of LOVE all day yesterday.
Some of the most personal questions and quiet desires of my heart were answered by my Aunt.
I felt like I could have sat there for 10 days listening to her.. and being loved by her.
I realized after she left... that one of the greatest blessings I have been given in my "Journey through life" is the relationship with my Great Aunts.
But especially...Aunt Jeannine.
My Aunt has blessed me in countless ways.. and I consider her one of my best friends.
SO very grateful to a loving Heavenly Father who hears and answers our prayers through others.
We are richly blessed by our Father in Heaven.
All of us.
It just takes some of us longer to see those blessings when it feels like we are swimming in poop.
I saw the Therapist again on Tuesday.
He counseled me to change one of my prayers once a day -- to only expressing gratitude for all that I have.
Not to ask for anything..but to only giving Thanks/gratitude.
Everyday so far... this prayer has been very beautiful. Spiritual. And -- Sacred.
I am grateful for that advice.. and all of the other forms of advice and healing that are flowing towards me like a river.
I feel so much Joy.
Other Joyful things yesterday...
Seeing our cat " Tuffy" put up with Mary's desire to treat him like a baby.
I sometimes see the annoyance in his eyes.. but he tolerates it -- because he knows she loves him.
Sitting in the warm sun with the door open... and feeling the warmth on my face through the glass screen door.. and watching the snow start to melt away.
Spring is coming... Spring is coming....
My Tulips are growing!
Today I am Grateful for:
2 salt-free and clean cars. Seeing a line at the car wash yesterday even made me happy.
Many people are happy for a break from the snow!!
Having a neighbor that you can send your kids to their house without calling them-- when you need to borrow 2 cans of tomato sauce... because you are in the middle of cooking.. and realize that you don't have all of the ingredients you need.
Hearing from friends that you haven't heard from in a long time.
The Blue and Gold Banquet is done for one more year....