My Obsession over Brandon Flowers.....

 

 

Sometimes I speak of Brandon Flowers.. and don't even realize how obsessed I sound -- until someone brings it to my attention.

 

My husband and children hear about him so often... it's like he's an extended family member.

 

But then.. I step out of my house.. and I talk about Mr. Flowers and I get crazy looks.. judgmental people and lots of crazy questions follow.

 

So today.. I am going to state the obvious.

 

Yes.. I am obsessed with the Singer/Writer/Poet/Brilliant musician Brandon Flowers.

 

He also happens to be Mormon./ LDS.

 

He also happens to be the Lead singer of The Killers.

 

He also happens to be my favorite musician of all time -- only 2nd to Michael Jackson. 

 

 

 Why the Obsession?

 

I have thought so much about it myself.. I sometimes wonder why also.

 

Are these the reasons that I fangirl so much over him???

 

1- He is a musical genius.

 

  He writes it.. sings it.. plays some of his own instruments.. and brings it. 

 He has not disappointed me yet with his musical brilliance.

 

He is one of THE BEST musicians I have ever heard live.   EVER.

 

2- His Lyrics.

 

The poetry that comes out of his mouth.. is sometimes the very thing I am feeling, have felt or have experienced.  I relate to him in so many ways.

 

He was raised for a time in a small town in Utah.

He was raised a  Mormon... but had a wild time...has been a prodigal son.. and I have related to many of his feelings -- of back in a time when I was lost daughter.

 

" All of these things that I have done" -- will always be a personal favorite because of the meanings I took away from it.

 

Then..fast forward to one of his later albums.. and he writes of the hard times of watching his Mother battle cancer.

 

Of course he writes these things in a beautiful and poetic way.

And of course.. I could relate to these feelings.. and I cried many times while listening to:

 

" A Dust land Fairytale."

 

These are just small examples of the many profound songs that have made a difference in my life.. in a healing sort of way. 

 

It's plain and simple.. when I hear his music.. It's as if he is writing the things I want to, and don't know how to express.

 

3- He is a good guy.

 

I am NOT going to say he is perfect.. because being an ultimate fan.. I even know better.

 

He's not.

 

I try to pass by and pretend that the photos of him smoking in his early career days don't exist.

 

~ And while I am at it....I wish I could wish away the eye-liner too.

 

But for that time that he was going through his "Wild" side.. he also expressed to the world:

 

" I've got soul but I'm not a Solider."

 

He has never professed to be an ultimate saint.

 

Truly.. are any of us??

 

A little while ago.. he did a " I am a Mormon" ad.. talking about his Faith and Family.. and the press and many websites had a field day -- making fun of him and our Mormon Faith.

 

It was a very bold thing to do--being as famous as he is -- to profess such a thing.

 

I felt so proud to be a fan of his.

 

And recently.... while touring the world for his new album " Battle Born" he was invited to be on a popular Norwegian talk show to promote his album.. and  the host ended up talking very little of the album--or his music.. but instead wanted to talk of his religion and Faith.

 

The interview was uncomfortable to watch.. and by the end.. they even invited Brandon to stay for a bit longer-- while they invited one of the top Atheists in the world to come on and discuss God and religion.

 

The Atheist said terrible things about our beloved Prophet Joseph Smith.. and also of the Book of Mormon.. and Brandon was clearly uncomfortable.. but yet.. stood up for his Faith, the BOM, and the Prophet Joseph Smith.

 

I didn't know I could adore Brandon Flowers anymore than I ever have.. but I did.

 

4- WE love Brandon Flowers.

 

Notice I said "WE."

 

 

This is my car.  My Suburban.

 

My neighbors and friends make note of where I am.. because I am the only one with this Bumper Sticker.  I had it made.  It's an original.

 

I confess.. I have proudly drove through Nephi Utah in hopes to run into a family member.

 

I proudly drove our Suburban through Vegas... in hopes that I would be spotted by a band member.. or if by *wishing on a star* -- Brandon himself.

 

With the Vinyl sticker I have on the back.. these are the most asked questions I get.

 

1)- Who in the heck is Brandon Flowers?
 

To which.. I feel sad for them.. because they are missing out on such amazing music.

 

2)- I saw your car.. and "googled" Brandon Flowers..

 

I see people in my rear view mirror looking the name up at a stop light often.

Basically.. it makes me feel good.. because I am doing my part in the world-- introducing them to his musical goodness.

 

Yes.. he is Hot.  We have all have eyes.  But his music is superior to his looks.

 

Your welcome.

 

3)- "Who is Brandon Flowers?" 

 

That name sounds SO Gay. ( Said by my one of my Uncles.)

Yes.. much of the world thought he was gay.  I blame it on the fact that he dresses well.. and the fact that he is hot.. and also..those days of hideous eye liner. 

Yes.. I hate the eye liner.

 

4)- Chad must LOVE you to let you have that on the back of the car.

  (or)

Does he care that you love and talk about Brandon Flowers so much??

 

My whole Family loves Brandon Flowers.

 

Definitely not on the same "love" level as I do.. but it makes my heart sing when my kids ask me to play certain songs for them.. because they love the song so much.

 

Chad also adores his music.

 

The other day he said something about his new album being " Addicting"

and my heart was indeed happy.

 

Chad doesn't feel jealous because:

 

1- I have NEVER thought of Brandon Flowers in a lustful or Sexual way. 

I am happily married.. and he is a happily married man.

Lusting after him would be wrong.. and I do not.

 

Isn't it sad.. that when you are passionate about someone or something.. people always think the worst?  Well.. I am here to tell you that it isn't that way.. so please don't judge me.

 

I actually feel bad for his wife.  I think of her all of the time.. and what sacrifices she makes to let him tour.. and produce goodly music for the world.

She must be a good woman.

 She is home with 3 kids.  Alot. And while I feel bad for her-- It's like a double-edged sword. 

If he quits making music.. and stays home all of the time with his family.. then we ( as his fans ) are at a huge loss too.

 

I know.. we are nothing in the most "important" scheme of things.. so if he retires.. to be home full time... I will understand... but I will mourn greatly.  * I can't bear to think about it.*

 

Yes.. he is a Good looking man.. and anyone with eyes can tell you that.

But.. no lusting here.  THE END.

5)  Meeting Brandon Flowers is on my " Bucket list."

 

There are not many things I desire to do before I die.. and my "bucket List" is actually quite small.. and almost everything on it has to do with traveling.

The only person in the world that I desire to meet at this time is:  Mr. Brandon Flowers.

 

I have had more than one dream about meeting him.

It's always the same.  I always have about 5 minutes to talk.... because he is so busy and rushed.... 

~ And in my dreams.. I can't even talk because I am crying so hard.

 

Chad shakes his hand.. and I just stand there.....foolishly emotional & crying.

 

Then I wake up.. and I feel sad.. that it was just a dream.. but then happy too.. that it was just a dream.. and I didn't miss my chance to talk to him in real life.

 

Sometimes... I am awake.. but day dreaming.. and I play the "meeting him in real life" scenario " in my head.. and I start CRYING just thinking about truly meeting him.

 

This is how I know I am truly obsessed.

 

And it makes me sad.. because I live in Utah.. and my chances of meeting him.. or getting back stage passes to meet him and get a personal autograph are almost zero -- living here in the Beehive State.

 

Most of his family -- Brother, Sisters, Nephews and Nieces all live here.

 

Some of my dear friends are even friends with some of his family.

 

When he tours here in Utah.... his old friends from Nephi want to see him too.. and with all of these things.. it makes it impossible for one of his ultimate fans to meet him.

 

And I realize that this Bucket list wish will probably never come true.. but at least I have been given his music.  ~ And that -- truly and sappily --is the greatest gift. 

 

Today I am Grateful for:

 

Music.  It brings joy and happiness.. and can comfort sadness.  It gets me moving.. can be healing.. and therapeutic for my soul.

 

November 30th.  The Killers Sold Out Concert here in Utah.  Can't wait.

 

3 days of warmer Temperatures

 

1 more day of dealing with Election stuff.. and it will be over!

 

My right to vote.